letter to myself

i get stuck in a rut every often and then i write a letter to myself to get it together. this rut seems to be the longest i have had in a while, and this letter seems to be the best of the bunch


dear Kulzum,
this is a letter to yourself to get your shit together. i realize that in your head everytime you read a book or see a movie about someone “finding themselves”’, you want to quit your reality (meaning job, family, and basic day to day life.) and do that too but you cant do that. life does not work that way.

i realize your having a mid life crisis and you dont know what you want to do with your life and waking up every day is a bitch but seriously get it together.

you need to look hard in the mirror and face your demons within yourself. i realize your unhappy and you feel so mundane about life but please stop taking it out on people like your mother who mostly doesn't deserve it. yes there are some people who do deserve it like your father bc if he snaps you snap back and that is okay and justified.

i know its hard but writing seems to help, so why you do that everyday. dont be jealous of the life you wish you led, just keep reminding yourself that your sri lankan and because you are an only child you have to be perfect. everyone’s life takes them on different road and yours right now is apparently at a long ass traffic signal that wont turn green. but don't worry i have faith somehow someway when you least expect it it will turn green and you will be riding off in the sunset
Sincerely yours,

kulzum